Boring Sunday

Blah it is such a boring day today. I got up and watched tv. I was still at Kristina's. I woke up from a sharp pain in my stomach. I don't know what it was but it woke me up and made me very uncomfortable all morning. Brayden woke up at 8 so I got him and brought him down stairs so Kristina and Sean could sleep. My mom came to get me and we did a couple errands and then just went home. We watched my Twilight DVD finally. Taylor Lautner <3!! lol. I have been reading manga all day!

Manga of the moment: Moe Kare <3

Chorus

I am hanging in chorus and helping with some peoples math homework. Can't wear the hat i brought. i think it is stupid. It is "distracting", yep thats why people are wearing outrageous outfits! Whatever, today is going to be the shit day. GO JUNIORS!! WE WILL KICK ASS!

Alicia is coming over for Sadies and Rhi is going to Sadies. I am soo happy for today!! Yay1!

Study Hall once again.

Blah...this study hall is soo boring. I have physics after. It is only a half block which makes me happy.

For my Life Topics class we have to do a sum of 10 hours of community service. I decided where community service looks good on a college application, why not make it look even better with doing community service that goes along with the major I want in college, which is elementary teaching. So I am going to shadow an elementary teacher. I wanted to do that on a orange days because I won't miss as much like I would on a black day, a full block of physics and pre calc. I have gotten most of my teachers to write a note, or sign of to let me go for one full day. All that's left is to write the note for Mr. Brace and have him sign it. Then I am off, I am probably going to go Monday because I wanted to do Thursday but it doesn't look like that will happen with my english test being on Wendsday now, thanks to my class, who likes to procratinate and wanted the Ethan Frome Test that day, and the paper is due that day so I would rather not miss that. I just have to make sure that my problem set for physics, which is due Monday is all ready and get it here on time. It should be really fun. It only gets me 8 hours of community service so then I am going to do a day at the humaine society to get the rest of the time.

Sadies is tomorrow and I am pumped. Alicia is spending the night Friday and Rhiannon is going to the dance, so it is going to be the shit!! Well physics is going to be starting soon. Peace!

Blah....its Late.

Well the last two weeks have been real shitty but I am hoping that things will turn around and be better from here on out. I got texting on my phone so now I text people all the time. I is silly. Things are starting to get better between me and Drew. We are having actual conversations again like we used to before we dated. I have been down on myself lately but it isn't a big deal.

Sadies is Friday and I am pumped. I am a pimp cause I gots two dates. Rhi and Alicia are my hoes. Well duh! Its going to be awesome! Alicia is spending the night and I get to see Rhi. It's going to be one hell of a night!!

I have been listening to full moon songs like all week so the song of the moment is Love Chronicles <3.
Manga of the week is Kyou Koi wo Hajimemasu. It is totally awesome! I am like in love with it! Look it up!!

Well talk to you later. Byes!

RIP Lovey McCaslin

You are my life,
my world, my love.
I will miss you more than anything.
I loved you more than anyone.

You will always be in my heart
and that will never change.

You changed over the 10 years
you were in my life.
Not only you but I as well
changed for the better.

You were my darling child,
my heart and soul.
Everything I ever was because
of you were in my life.

You walked into my life unannonced
but everything changed.

Even though that first night
you were going to stay in the bathroom
you escaped, and unknowing of
where anything was you went to my room.

You were a one in the million child,
different from any one on this world.
You made you self stick out
by licking my ear.

Any time I was sad, you would
know in a heart beat.
The little patter of your feet,
which was a motor boat would come to me.

You would always protect me
even though you were my child.
Any intruders, even walking past
would get a growl from you.

You are my life,
my world, my love.
I will miss you more than anything.
I loved you more than anyone.

Fed Up.

Yeah it happened. I got mad. First time blogging it too :P. It just ridiculous that I do a lot around this house and no one seems to notice, but then someone who sits on the friggin couch all day decides to yell at me to clean the kitchen because all of "my" dishes are spread around, but in reality there was 2 bowls, so why don't you just be quiet for once. If you care that much then how about you get your lazy ass off the couch and clean up the 2 dishes yourself. Oh no, cause then i have to take the dishes out of the dish washer and put the 2 dirty ones in. "OH NO!! The world is just going to end!!" Oh well. :P

Nothing much this week. Allegria supposedly Thursday and movies with Homz/Kotonoha, Jeremy, and Momo. We are going to go see Dear John. I am pumped. Nothing else as far as I know this week, except more cleaning :P. And homework that I am sooo not excited to do.

Song of the moment: Krazy by Pitbull

Happy Valentines Day!!

Yes, today is Valentines. I don't have any one to spend but I will stay home and watch Shugo Chara and hang with the fam. Not too fun but oh well. Not much this week, it vaca so I am happy. My Sadies dress finally came in and it is soooo cute!! Yesterday I baby sat Brayden and he was a perfect angel. Barely cried at all! BOOYAH! Had allegria yesterday and it was so funny, and Jared will probably drop me on my head :P

Failed!!!

I totally need a round of appluase. I completely just bombed a test miserably. There were 45 questions and out of that 45 I got 24 wrong. So I did fail. I will have to bring it up with Big Ideas and hopefully do okay on my essay that I have to do over vaca. I am so proud, not really. Atleast it wasn't a huge let down because I knew from the start I was going to fail. I absolutly hate that class anyways. I am just taking it because it is required. History is not my subject. It never has been. I just don't care what happened in the past. People tell us that the past is the past and we should look forward to the future and the present, so why do we have to learn about it?

On the lighter side, I have a quote. Someone suggested it. "Dunkin Donuts Sucks." -Sinjin Rancourt.

Song of the Moment: No Surprise by Daughtry. Haha!

Study Hall

Sitting in study hall at this point. Physics soon and I haven't started studying for HUSH test which I know I am going to bomb. I have no doubt in my mind. But whatever. I can hope and pray but the chances are I still will. Today is an okay day but who knows how it will turn out by the end of the day. He told me last nite he needs to still think about it and that he would tell me today. The last thing he said to me before I went to sleep was "Whatever happens remember that I like you." Hmm.....I wonder what side he is leaning to. I really hope not but I would be lying to myself.

Song of the Moment: Every Time We Touch by Cascada

First Poem (Sorry its sad)

I can't believe what's happening.
This sucks and there is nothing
stopping it from happening.

My world is crashing right in front of me
and there is no pillow to cushion it.
Along with the world, my heart is crumbling
in your hands and you are helping it.

Do you know what you are doing to me?
No, it isn't raining, but this under the weather
feeling to all yours to blame.
The bubbly happy girl is crushed as well.
Thanks.
To.
You.

Song on right now: I'm only me when I am with you. By Taylor Swift. Seems a bit ironic.

Babysitting

I am right now babysitting my nephew, Brayden Conner. He is the cutest thing. It is almost his bed time but he is taking a nap and just does not want to wake up. He should wake up soon. I would wake him up but it will scare him so I will wait. I have still got a lot of stuff on my mind at this point and it isn't helping that my ipod is being stupid and wont recieve texts when they are sent. GRR. Well hopefully tonight goes better. I can be hopeful. :P

The Day After

Not the day after pill I promise, but it is the day after something that wasn't great. Last night was completely horrible and everyone else was the same way. No one had a good night, but when I tried to talk to someone about it they were surrounded in their own mess and disaster to even listen to what was happening. Not like I am not used to it. It happens all the time and it is time to just get over it but whatever. I felt almost abounded and then when I tried to talk to that same person in school they just shrugged it off and just went on talking about her problem the whole time. I listened to her for the past week about the same exact problem but it seems to just get worse for her, but when I ask her to listen to me, which I barely do, she "listened" and then continued on with her problem. I give up. I just hope today is much better than last night but I won't know til later.

I don't dare to talk to him, so I won't text him like I normally do. I miss talking to him already. "I feel like we are starting to grow distant." I think my heart stopped. "I am going to get off so I can think about this." It doesn't sound like him but it was now I don't know what to think anymore. I am lost. I thought things would work with the long distance but I didn't see this coming at all but it is here now. If it is going to end I want him to not drag it out just because it will hurt me. It will hurt more if he fakes liking me when he really doesn't. We will see what happens tonight. :P

First Post

Yeah, that's right. This is my first post to my blog.

So lets try to ease you into who this hyper person is. I am short and hyper, as you can tell by the title. I completely love love. That may sound weird, but it makes sense as well. I love seeing all my friends start liking someone and see that relationship start growing and expanding. It gets cute seeing it happen right in front of my eyes. Yes, I am looking for my one special person. I am dating someone, who is awesome. Drew, it completely awesome and is understanding of everything. He loves to say "I am a lover not a fighter." He says a lot of cute things but they are a bit cliched and almost like they were on a website but it still makes my heart melt. It's a tough relationship, but we are going to make it work. He is in Connecticut at college. I miss him very much and I can't wait for him to come up on his vacation in March. Only a month away, yay!

I have crazy friends but I totally love them. They bring out the best in me and they are the complete reason for who I am today. Alicia, introduced me to anime and manga. My first one for both were the same. Full Moon wo Sagashite, or for people who don't know what that means, it means Searching for a Full Moon. It is a very cute one. I am more of a shoujo person, but I also love Inuyasha. I am right now completely addicted to Vampire Knight. Yes, I know, I am a freak. Rhiannon keeps me both sane and insane. It seems impossible but with the two of us in the same room it makes complete sense. When I am confused about anything she will calm me down and help me through it, but at the same time we can get completely hyper together. Kiera keeps me up on the new lingo and clothing style. She even like to critique me on my hair to make sure it is straight, and I mean perfectly straight. You have to love them no matter what happens.

I am a smart person but absolutely hate school! I am taking physics and advanced Pre-calc. Oh, did I forget to mention that I am a junior in high school. My bad. Well I am. I want to become a teacher once I get out of college. My hope is to become and Elementary Teacher but if that doesn't happen then I will be a high school math teacher. I absolutely hate math but I am good at it so whatever.

Well I better stop before I bore you to death. Peace out.