I miss you!

I know, it's been even longer than a week since the last post, but there is a very good excuse. Everything, for the past week, has been so busy and upsetting that I didn't know what to do. My grandfather passed away on Wednesday, the 21th of July. He was back in Waterville at a Nursing home at Lakewood when they found out something else was wrong with him. They couldn't diagnosis it until he was back in Portland. His kidneys had failed and there was nothing they could do. He passed away July 21, 2010. He was the only grandfather I ha, but I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.

Around all that time, not much had happened. Our family usually hang out at my grandmothers house playing bean toss that my grandfather built the boxes for. We kind of changed it into a drinking game but it was our way of celebrating his life. The funeral was on July 26, 2010 at Maine's Veteran Cemetery in Augusta, Maine. It was a nice ceremony and then there was a reception at the Winslow VFW.

Well, let's change the subject to a bit happier. I have been hanging out with Mat alot, like usual and he just makes me giggle. I won't completely go into details but it is so funny.

On last Saturday, Sean took the day off, so I was able to go to my friend's pool party. It was so fun. I was there til 11. It was Alicia, Pascal, Lizzy, Liz, Kyrie, Boone, Mat, and Ducker all hanging out at Lizzy's house, playing games like Pictionary and apples to apples, going swimming in her pool, and just chilling out. It was so much fun and it was an awesome way to relax. On Sunday, I went to Fort Knox with my family and Alicia. It was totally fun too. That trip was to get my dad's mind off of everything. He has been stressing about everything lately and has a lot on his mind.

I feel bad that it has been so long since I last posted but I had a good reason. I will try and get back to how I as before. Haha.

Song of the Week: Take It Off by Kesha

Quote of the Week: "Boys instead of toys? I must agree."

Qupte of the Week 2: "Infinity Cat. Cats no longer only have nine lives, but they live forever."

Jeez...what a slacker

I know, I know. I am slacking off here and falling behind. When I first started this blog, in February, I would post about every 3 days now it is over a week til I post again. And I just noticed there was a whole month between posts. Thinking of when I started it just made me think what I was thinking way back when. My first post mostly focused on me and everything important to me, and there are already a couple things there that changed. For the better? No one knows that but I think one thing was for the better. Next couple was me being upset, wow, I was pathetic and I hope I never get like that again over some guy who really didn't deserve it.

Well, that was a little blast from the past. So maybe I have changed a little and at least I didn't get more pathetic. So I have been hanging out with Mat a lot this week, which always makes me happy no matter what. It doesn't even really matter to me if he is physically next to me, but as long as he is talking to me I feel happy.

I have told myself that I am going to read more manga. I have been slipping a lot lately, with everything, but lets change that. And I have read a couple cute ones so read them.

Manga of the Day: Boku wa Imouto ni Koi wo Suru
Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu is a spin off of it. It is about twin siblings who fall in love with each other and try and hide their relationship. They also have the conflict inside themselves knowing that this type of relationship isn't morally acceptable.
I love this because I first fell in love with Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu, and while reading Boku wa Imouto ni Koi wo Suru, the mangaka puts the love relationship between Mayu and Takuma (Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu) into the relationship of Yori and Iku.

Song of the Day: Airplanes by B.o.B. ft. Hayley Williams
I love looking up at the stars and see if I can ever find shooting stars to make a wish that I really want, if it is for me or someone I care about.

Well that is it for today.
Peace! <3

Frazzled

It has been a week since my last post. I know, shocking right? Lately, things have been heading down hill with my family, but it is pulling us closer together. A lot of things have been just going through my mind and it is a blow up and leak out my ears.

On Saturday, my grandfather had a heart attack, but luckily things worked out in his favor that everything is fine. He woke up with chest pains, so my grandmother gave him an asprin while my uncle called for an ambulance. My uncle was there for the weekend where it is the fourth. Well he was transported to Portland after having the heart attack at the hospital. He has been there since then and everyone is worried. One thing that I need to get off my chest is that this is about Grammie getting to see Grandpa. Someone in my family just doesn't seem to understand it. Grandpa is 88 and you are 22. I get that you care and want to go see him but with Grandpa being in ICU not many people can go in and he gets tired very quickly. Just be lucky you got to see him, even though you threw a temper tantrum. Wierd how that works. Yesterday, he didn't reconize anyone, even Grammie. It worried me a little but he is better now, which is good.

I have decided to scrap book my senior year and the summer before, which is NOW! I have started it and I have a page for both 4th of July, which is mostly just pictures of the fireworks, and Portcon, which is just a picture of me and Lizzy. We didn't really take any pictures there. Oh well. It looks totally awesome, but it makes me think. What is going to happen til the time I graduate, or even when I graduate college? Its crazy to think about it. I am super excited for my senior year, don't get me wrong, but I think some where deep inside I am scared. I am scared to lose my friends when we seperate and try to achieve our goals. It's scary to think that people who you are best friends with now may not even talk to you anymore. With my boyfriend a year below me, whats going to happen when I do graduate? Stay together or decide it is better to not try? What about the guy you like losing all interest in you? Its just scary but I think we just have to hope for a good day tomorrow and make the most of what you have right now.

Other things on my mind, you may ask. With senior year coming around, that also means college, which again brings many things into my mind. How am I going to pay for it? What colleges do I apply to? Will I even get in? Will I get many scholarships? Wow....I don't even know what to say. Haha.

Another thing on my mind is my wonderful boyfriend. I know, I know, most people would say "shouldn't you be more worried about other things" and to those certain people, I say shut up! You have no idea how happy I am about this. You have no idea what I have been through to finally find someone nice. And you may say that you have been through worse, but you don't know half of what I have been through so how can you compare? Many other things have also been on my mind about it, but you will just have to wait.

Song of the Moment: Destined Twins
It is a song on the soundtrack for Vampire Knight and it is so pretty. Tee hee.