The Day After

Not the day after pill I promise, but it is the day after something that wasn't great. Last night was completely horrible and everyone else was the same way. No one had a good night, but when I tried to talk to someone about it they were surrounded in their own mess and disaster to even listen to what was happening. Not like I am not used to it. It happens all the time and it is time to just get over it but whatever. I felt almost abounded and then when I tried to talk to that same person in school they just shrugged it off and just went on talking about her problem the whole time. I listened to her for the past week about the same exact problem but it seems to just get worse for her, but when I ask her to listen to me, which I barely do, she "listened" and then continued on with her problem. I give up. I just hope today is much better than last night but I won't know til later.

I don't dare to talk to him, so I won't text him like I normally do. I miss talking to him already. "I feel like we are starting to grow distant." I think my heart stopped. "I am going to get off so I can think about this." It doesn't sound like him but it was now I don't know what to think anymore. I am lost. I thought things would work with the long distance but I didn't see this coming at all but it is here now. If it is going to end I want him to not drag it out just because it will hurt me. It will hurt more if he fakes liking me when he really doesn't. We will see what happens tonight. :P