Take It Easy

That pretty much explains everything I am feeling and thinking at this moment. I have been so stressed with everything that is going on in life right now that my mind and body is barely holding together, and I mean barely. I have been stressed about getting into college, paying for it, and most importantly and recently choosing between Farmington and Machias. I am terrified that I make the wrong choice and ruin my future. I have been stressed about paying for college, ecspecially since Saturday, when I decided to quit my job, which add unneeded stress. Saturday night, I was so nervous and stressed that I was physically sick and couldn't stand the look or smell of any food. Sunday wasn't much better. I barely ate anything because my stomach was bothering me, and we had whipped potatoes which is my favorite but I couldn't stomach it. Peanut Butter was even worse, the smell just nauseated me. GROSS! And every time I begin to think about quitting and the many thoughts that come with that, like returning the apron and how I am kind of a failure, my stomach begins to knot and I begin shaking and getting dizzy. Which isn't healthy, so I hope this is done soon.

So, Dad and I went shopping for mom's Christmas presents, and all I can say was it was very interesting seeing dad get mad at all the knuckle heads who don't know how to drive. Then I had to wrap them, and I HATE WRAPPING! Well, atleast it is about done, I just have to put something into a bag, no more wrapping paper, and then I am finished with it!

Christmas is right around the corner. :) I am excited!! And I am now at a loss of words, so I better stop before I start rambling.

Song of the Week: Ai No Uta by Mai Fukui
It is the theme song for a drama/movie for Koizora. It is a heart wrenching story about a girl, who has only had one boyfriend before, meets a popular boy and his scary friend. She believes him to scary because she saw him in a fight right outside her class room, but they later become friends and even more. It is worth reading and watching. Warning: The manga isn't finished so if you want to know the end you have to watch the drama or movie. I suggest the drama. It follows the manga closer, but there are still many differences between all three of them.