Oh My Gawd!

I am so sorry it has been almost two weeks since I last posted anything at all. So much is happening and it is completely crazy. So I will start with the relationship between me and Mat. Mat broke up with me, which I didn't see coming at all, but it's high school and these things happen a lot. Oh well, nothing to do but move on, and he moves fast. He might say the opposite, but he is hitting on my friends sister, who is a freshman. He is doing allegria, even though he told me while we were dating that he didn't want to do it (ouch), and he is also going to Homecoming with her. The funniest thing (it's not really all that funny), but I was trying to not worry about every little thing and be stronger about what is happening around me, and right when I was making improvements Mat dumped me, and if I was worried about stuff that was happening I would have saw it coming and not have worried about it. Just my luck. I am not mad at her or even him, I am just more hurt that everything went down in one week, and there was nothing I could do to stop it, and that wasn't even all of the bad stuff that happened that week. About ten minutes after Mat broke up with me, I got a message from John, who is in my CBL class, on facebook asking me what's up. We were talking and I told him about Mat breaking up with me, which he replied by saying that it was a coincidence, he asked me if I wanted to go on a date with him, which I said it was way too early for me to get back into dating. I texted him non-stop for 3 days, the fourth day turned bad. He was always pushing us dating which I got used to after a while, but he said that I would have to tell him if I didn't want to date him because he wouldn't talk to me after that so he could "get over" me. So there was more stress put on me about it. He also told me that night that if we dated that I wouldn't be allowed to talk to Mat anymore, and at that point we were still trying to be friends and go back to the way it was before everything happened, as I like to say "being mature". So I told him that I couldn't date him if that was the case and he hasn't talked me or even looked at me since then. I want to know one thing, why are guys such jerks and don't think about how the other person is feeling or even what they are thinking? Now these are the questions that should be answered. All I know is my trip to Machias couldn't have come at a better time.

That weekend right after everything happened was the weekend I went to Machias, and thank God it was. It really helped me cool down and feel better, if only for a weekend. Kait picked me up right after school and we left. I was so happy to be leaving Winslow without any regrets or anything holding me back. I could do what I wanted without worrying about what my boyfriend would think or be okay with. I met many hawt and mature guys there. I went to the Rush, which is a sorority informational and we hung out the whole time. I loved the freedom and I can't wait to leave Winslow and all the drama again when I go to college as a freshman.

After that, John continued to ignore me, which he told me that he was going to do. School has been going okay, besides the lunch with Mat. I get very cranky at that lunch. I absolutely hate people there except for a few and everyone just becomes so immature, This week is spirit week and today is Black and Orange Day. Tomorrow, there is a bonfire that I am going to, and I don't know if I am looking forward to it too much, but I will go to see friends. In two days, I will have Homecoming, with no date. Just my luck. Whatever. I will go with Kayla. Who knows what will happen and truthfully I don't really care. I have SAT's that day too. Then after I will be going to the football game then to Kayla's house to get ready.

That's just about it for the update, I know I am boring but oh well. I promise to update this more.

Song of the Moment: If I had You by Adam Lambert

Video of the Moment: Watch it, now! It's hilarious. I feel bad for the innocent woman just walking by, the dog, and the poor people driving around this awesome person.